Sunday, May 19, 2013

Stone Town and Malarone Dreams


The past few days in Zanzibar have been very interesting nonetheless. I already have so many stories to share, but only a limited amount of Internet time. Since my work doesn’t really begin until next week when I go to schools to meet the scholars, headmasters/mistresses, begin distributing applications to select from a new pool of potential applicants, and interviewing girls studying STEM... I’ve spent a lot of my time exploring Zanzibar.

The energy surrounding Stone Town is incredible. Stone Town’s alleyways reveal much about the many historical cultural influences that Zanzibar has undergone. I find myself getting lost in Stone Town’s winding alleyways, passing the Arabic style houses, and a plethora of brass-studded wooden doors. The doors of Zanzibar are beautiful, something I’ve never seen before. Some of the most beautiful doors I’ve seen have verses from the Quran eloquently engraved in them.

Each nook and cranny I’ve discovered through these twisting alleyways brings something new, whether it be the scent of spices, children reciting verses from the Quran, or even the clinking of tea cups. I eat most of my meals in an authentic, Zanzibari restaurant called Lukhmanns (thanks to past delegates who are so fond of it). I eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner for just 2,000 TSH (less than $1.50!). Most of the people who work at Lukhmanns speak English, though I’ve had to pick up some Swahili in order to get around town. They think my name is Shemsa, though I’ve told them almost a dozen times it’s Safiyah.

Yesterday I went to the main market, across the street from the roads I was used to. I retraced a path I had taken earlier in the week looking to buy some scarves. After making my way through the bustling crowd of natives trying to sell me everything from bui-buis, fabrics, and roasted corn..I finally found a scarf vendor selling beautifully printed hijabs. He initially tried selling the scarves to me for 5,500 TSH (a little less than $3.50), but I wanted to get a feel for how low I could go, so I insisted on 2,400 TSH. Not before long, I turned around to see masses of people yelling and sprinting in the opposite direction. Vendors were packing up their stands and running, fast. Confused about what was happening, and obviously a little terrified considering I was alone, don’t speak the language, and had no idea what was happening, I dropped the scarves and followed the crowd: ran as fast and far as I could.

[Mama don’t freak out]

Later I learned from someone on the street that vendors had been selling items in an undesignated area of the market, and that the police force came and beat them out of the area…Hence all the dramatic commotion.

I retraced my steps back home and stuck to the alleyways I was familiar with. I went from shop to shop looking to buy a pair of loose pants because bringing denim jeans in this Tanzanian heat was the second worst idea I’ve had in a while (not staying in Tanzania ALL summer was the first – I love it here). I haggled down the price from 28,000 TSH to 18,000 TSH, engaging in light conversation with the store owner until he asked where I was from. I told him my family was from Syria, and we talked about the ongoing conflict. He was a pro-Bashar. And looked surprised to learn I was not. Needless to say the transaction for the pants was not completed.

Everybody here adores Obama. They romanticize him in every way possible, putting his face on scarves and skirts. People on the street will ask me if I’m from Obamaland, and I chuckle and say yes.

Aside from what I’m experiencing in real life, I’m also experiencing some pretty interesting things in my sleep: Malarone Dreams

Malarone is the anti-malaria medication I’ve been taking since I’ve been in Tanzania. I almost didn’t get the prescription this summer, but the mere thought of me being dragged through Zanzibar with a high fever and bursting red blood cells was enough to persuade me to get the medication.

Lately I’ve been having Malarone dreams. I might as well be dropping acid every night before bed. The dreams are very, very vivid…basically an amplification of normal dreams. These dreams are so entertaining and much more superior than any HBO television series or video game. All I have to do is fall asleep and I’m the star of my own action film. Malarone does crazy stuff to your brain after dark. Normally I have dreams like this two or three times a week. Here, I have almost a dozen every night. I typically wake up confused about where I am because the dreams are just THAT real. The worst part of this all, is that these dreams are actually really fun! None of them are scary or disturbing, but more so adventurous and thrilling.

Last night I dreamt Michelle Obama was trying to detain me. The dream progressed from each of the schools I attended starting with the first Islamic school I went to in Durham called Ibad Ar-Rahman, to AB Combs, to Martin Middle School, Cary High School, and ending at UNC. She went from school to school looking for me. For each school setting that I was able to escape from her power, a town in Syria was liberated. Later in the dream when I learned of the trade-off that was happening, I started enrolling myself in as many schools in NC as possible…just so that I could put myself in “dangerous” settings in order to successfully escape her grip and liberate as many of my suffering brothers and sisters in Syria as possible. It was such an exciting dream and it made total sense at the time. Obviously, in hindsight, it’s illogical and many of the motifs in the dream stem from things that happened earlier that day (me arguing with the shop owner about Syria, people asking if I’m from Obamaland, etc…). But like I said, the dream was so vivid, that to be honest, it almost feels like a memory.

PS: this morning at breakfast I stumbled upon another mzungu at Lukhmanns. We ate breakfast at the same table and chatted about Zanzibar. He told me he had lived in Zanzibar for 7 years, yet did not speak a lick of Swahili. He also told me he worked with holistic empowerment, energy healing, and even grilled me on if I was aware of the spirits, aware of self, and aware of attraction. The situation was so weird that I even stopped to question if this was real life or if I was having another Malarone Dream because none of this made sense. To add insult to injury, this fool had bright red fish sauce smeared all over this face babbling about me needing to be aware of nonsense. I just couldn't listen to him with a straight face that when I finished my milk tea I stood up and asked if he was aware of the fact he had crap all over his face. 

Note to self: stay away from fellow mzungus.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

"Start on your dissertation..."

  ...Was a well stated text I received from my sister when I asked her what in God's name I would do to busy myself on the 25 hour plane ride to Dar Es Salaam, Tanzania. Dar Es Salaam is the capital of Tanzania and translates in Arabic to “the House of Peace”. I can tell you this was one of the biggest selling points when I was introducing the idea of me traveling to Africa alone to my parents….However, I didn’t spend much time in the house of peace except for my first night in Tanzania. Wednesday morning I caught a flight from Dar Es Salaam to Zanzibar, and eventually made my way to Stonetown. The entirety of my trip will be in Zanzibar, an island off the coast of Tanzania in which is the product of many different cultural influences: Arab, Indian, and even Persian.
My time in Zanzibar will be two fold: (1) capturing and documenting the personal narrations of girls in Zanzibar pursuing educations in STEM fields (science, technology, engineering, math) and (2) serving as a member of delegation for Students for Students International (S4Si).

(1)        Capturing and documenting personal narrations of girls in Zanzibar studying STEM subjects:

The vast majority of public schools in Zanzibar do not have the resources to adequately prepare students for national exams and to fulfill many students’ scientific curiosity. For many years, an organization called the Forum for African Women Educationalists (FAWE) organized science camps in 9 different regions of Zanzibar at local Teacher Training Centers in order to address the missing scientific educational supplements. The Teacher Training Centers remedied one of the most pressing educational challenges that students in Zanzibar face: the lack of science resources and qualified science teachers. Unfortunately, due to lack of funding in recent years, FAWE was forced to discontinue their science programs.

As a public health major and science enthusiast, it’s disheartening to learn that some of my international peers are denied the venue and support needed to discover the same beauty of science that I’ve been so fortunate to experience during my own schooling. Girls’ involvement in STEM subjects both on a domestic and international level is something I’ve been interested in my entire life. My curiosity in science and technology education derives from my own personal experience in tutoring middle and high school girls in math, science, and technology as a means of increasing the engagement of girls with STEM subjects. My research will investigate the approaches and practices taken by math, science, and technology teachers to adequately prepare students for national exams. I will also capture and document the experiences of girls who are passionate about STEM subjects, and how the removal of FAWE’s science camps has since affected their academic aspirations and future ambitions.

(2)        Serving as a member of delegation for Students for Students International (S4Si):

S4Si is a scholarship program that fully funds secondary schooling for young women in Zanzibar. I’ve been involved with S4Si since my freshman year at Carolina, and as cheesy as this may sound, I’ve been excited about going on delegation since. Members of delegation are responsible for maintaining a close relationship with our partner NGO in Zanzibar, Forum for African Women Educationalists (FAWE), selecting a new class of scholars, checking in with scholars chosen in previous years, training and working with mentors, and collecting information to bring back to UNC to improve our organization.

S4Si has very close ties and open communication with our scholars. Through this, I hope to gain a deeper understanding of the many trials that girls in Zanzibar interested in STEM subjects  must overcome in her search to satisfy her scientific inquisitiveness.

Last year I served as Co-Director of Scholarships for S4Si, so my job comprised of creating profiles of our scholars and condensing their connection letters and applications in one central document. Therefore, I know a lot about the lives of our scholars… Meanwhile, they have no idea I even exist. Talk about feeling insignificant, right? In about 2 days this won’t be the case when I have the chance to meet them all. Words cannot express how eager I was to begin this journey. First, this will be my first experience living and working in a predominantly Muslim country (yeah I’ve been to the Middle East when I was younger—but lets be honest I have 0 recollection of any of that). Since Zanzibar is predominately Muslim, all of our scholars are Muslims too. I am so thrilled about being able to connect with them beyond our mutual love for learning, education, and the advancement of women, but I will also be able to connect with these talented, brilliant girls on a religious, spiritual level.

I cannot thank God enough for blessing me with this unique  opportunity to satisfy this intellectual curiosity of mine. I’m excited about having the opportunity to learn more about traditional practices, biased attitudes, and limited teaching and learning materials that continue to dissuade the growth in number of females studying STEM subjects. I’m excited about having the opportunity to interview and gather oral histories from both ends of the spectrum: the teachers, curriculum creators, and administrators as well as the female students, their families, and the female achievers in STEM-based fields. I’m excited about having the opportunity to understand the structure and instruction of STEM curriculum in a developing nation. I’m especially excited about having the opportunity to join the conversation surrounding the advancement of more women role models in the fields of math, science, and technology.

So now that I’ve beaten the words “opportunity” “excited” and “STEM” to a pulp, I’ll chill with all the excitement and share a few things I've learned since departing RDU:


1.   We live in a very small world. Really, it’s tiny. I ran into Joel Hage in Amsterdam (a friend from UNC), and I also met 2 of Kari Beasley’s teammates from lacrosse during my flight to Tanzania.

2.   Never fly without a pair of socks. I kid you not I was reliving the scene from Titanic when Rose and Jack were shivering in the water on that airplane for almost 16 hours.

3.   Everything happens for a reason. I was originally supposed to leave RDU Sunday afternoon, but my flights got delayed an entire day and I didn’t leave until Monday afternoon. I was originally angry about this, but on second hand, I wouldn’t have landed a spot on the plane next to the Jiwa family’s dopplegangers. Seriously. I met a Muslim mother and daughter from London that were half Tanzanian, half Ugandan and LOOKED EXACTLY LIKE Amirah’s family. The mom took a personal interest me because she enjoyed hearing about S4Si’s mission and values. I took a personal interest in them because, well, they were carbon copies of Amirah’s family. Accent included. The mom learned that I was traveling to Africa alone, and pretty much took me under her wing during the flight until I was picked up from the airport from my hotel.